Who is Captain Shares-a-lot?

“My dad is a superhero,” my son, Stuart, pronounced.capn

Headline: Raleigh, NC – In an unfortunate confluence of events, children and adults alike are being traumatized by an unidentified man wearing tights and a cape, and calling himself “Captain Shares-A-Lot”. “It was so terrifying,” one witness said, as she clutched her sobbing child. “My poor baby will never be the same!” “Why would anyone do these kinds of things to children?!” another witness cried, shaking his fists in rage. This man does not appear to be armed, but authorities consider him mischievously dangerous. If you see him, do not attempt to detain him. Immediately call the proper authorities at the District Superintendent’s office.”

Could Captain Shares-A-Lot actually be Stuart’s dad? Is Captain Shares-A-Lot an alias of Pastor Ben’s? Does anyone actually think or believe that the Pastor of St. Mark’s would put on tights, don a cape, and seek to conceal his identity by wearing a mask – just to try and capture the preschoolers attention during chapel time? Surely not. I don’t believe it and the good news is there is no photographic evidence to prove it! Thanks be to God.

But it does leave us with a very interesting question…if I’m not Captain Shares-A-Lot then who is? Will he strike again? Only if he hears that someone is not sharing like they should. So next time you think about not sharing…remember you’ve been warned. May we go in peace assured that on God’s behalf Captain Shares-A-Lot is making the world a better place!

Found Her on The Internet

So last Saturday my college roommate from WFU got married in his hometown of Sarasota, Florida.  My wife and I along with several of my fraternity brothers and their wives made the trip down to Florida for the big event.  Most of us stayed in a hotel just blocks away from the wedding site – The John and Mable Ringling Museum of Art.  The wedding was beautiful and to be sure a good time was had by all!

Sunday morning several of us met up for breakfast in the hotel lobby.  As it turns out another couple had gotten married the day before and along with their friends and family was staying in our same hotel.  As I fixed my plate at the complimentary, continental breakfast buffet I overheard this other groom talking to his family.  Someone asked him, “Where did you find the minister?”  To which he replied, “Oh, you know, I found her on the Internet.”  “Oh, really?” the same family member responded.  “Yeah, you know, it only takes about 3 hours to get ordained.  Actually it is pretty easy.” 

Overhearing his remarks, I was left to wonder, “Where did I go so wrong?”  It took me 3 years at Duke Divinity School to earn a Masters of Divinity degree, tons and tons of written work, 3 years of probation, and multiple anxiety ridden appearances before the Board of Ordained Ministry to get ordained.  I will never forget June 8th, 2005 – the date I knelt before the Bishop and was ordained to Word, Order, Sacrament, and Service. 

My wife and some of the others who heard what this other groom had said started to rib me a litte bit.  They wanted to know why I hadn’t just gone on-line to get ordained in 3 hours or less.  Of course we all know why.  Ordinaton, rightly understood, is not something done overnight or fly-by-night.  It requires serious study, reflection, examination by both the candidate and the church.  When you take up the mantle of ordination you become both a servant and representative of God.  Like Moses you stand between a demanding God and a hungry/thirsty people.  It is not something to be taken lightly.  It is a humbling and yes sometimes scary place to stand.  I’m still learning, still discovering, and still pondering the mysteries of God.  I’m thankful for the process/method the United Methodist Church uses to discern if someone is ready for service in the church.  Even though it was difficult, grueling, and on more than one occasion I wanted to back out, in the end it helped me become the pastor I am today.  For that I give thanks to God.

So if you want a fly-by-night pastor, go check out the internet.  However, if you want a pastor who has been theologically and rigourously trained, who has been mentored for ministry, and closely examined by the church for fitness for ministry you might try your local United Methodist Church.  I’ve heard about one close by…St. Mark’s UMC I believe is the name.  Oh and yea…you can find her (St. Mark’s UMC) on the internet too- www.stmarksraleigh.org

Don’t Take The Banner Down!

Tuesday morning I almost asked for the banner attached to our church sign to be taken down.  It is a banner announcing to all the world that we host a Mid-day prayer service on Tuesdays at 12:15 pm.  We call the worship service Tuesdays for Troubled Times.  We started the service back in early October in part as a response to the economic crisis and bailout discussions that were causing many of us to feel anxious and troubled.  Pastor Lib reminded us that when we encounter such troubling circumstances and uncertain times that we must go to God in prayer.  As a way of announcing this new worship service, we not only put a blurb in our bulletin, but we also decided to print up a banner and attach it to our road sign with hopes that members of the larger community would join us. 

While it is true that we have averaged 20 or so folks in attendance for these services of worship, until this Tuesday everyone present was either a member or a friend of a member of St. Mark’s.  So on Tuesday morning of this week, prior to the the service, I all but decided it was time to take the banner down.  After all, it was obvious that it was not attracting the attention of the wider Midtown community.  Second, one of the poles used for supporting the banner had been badly bent when a tractor trailer turned in to our entrance a few weeks back and pulled down the power lines.  (See my blog post entitled The Afternoon the Lights Went Out.)  Needless to say the banner looked tacky hanging from the bent pole.  But the thought of taking down the banner did not get shared with the staff and thus the banner did not come down prior to the start of the service. 

To my great surprise as folks gathered for worship Tuesday around noon, I was greeted by two women that I recognized but did not know.  I knew they were not members of St. Mark’s, but I couldn’t place them.  As I approached they quickly introduced themselves as folks who help work the polls at St. Mark’s on election day.  They shared that they had seen our banner out on the street and felt compelled to join us for worship.  Good thing I didn’t take down that banner after all!

Grateful for the new folks among us, I began the service.  When I got to the Scripture reading, I looked up surveyed the gathered group and realized that another new face had joined us.  The woman appeared a bit disheveled and wore a mask of distress on her face, but otherwise she seemed engaged in the act of worship, so I continued the service thinking that after the benediction I might speak with her.

Upon concluding the service, I said the final blessing and began to walk to the back of the sanctuary only to hear a strange voice begin to speak.  I turned around and discovered that this same distressed woman was now addressing the gathered group.  She spoke about how she had no place to stay and nowhere to turn.  She stated that she had a job but was waiting on a paycheck.  While she had been waiting for the paycheck she had gotten evicted from her place and had spent the past few nights in a nearby park.  She began to tear up as she explained that had tried to get help at so many places but had been refused because she didn’t have children or a drug problem.  She pointed out that if you do drugs, have children, or don’t have a job there are agencies and places that can help but woe to the one who is out there trying so hard to do right, work a job, and trying to make ends meet.  It is hard to find help and even more difficult if you are female.  She went on to explain that she was just about to give up on God and turn to drugs when she saw our banner - Tuesdays for Troubled Times and declared to herself, “Well, I’m sure troubled, maybe I should go in.  Maybe these folks can help.”

As this woman shared her story, others began to gather around her and offer assistance.  It was truly a beautiful, Kingdom of God moment.  One person offered shelter, another food, still another financial resources.  I was awed by the response of God’s people in this place.  And yet…

There was something in my gut that told me to go slow…that there might be more to this story.  Sure it sounded good.  I too wanted to believe that the banner had done its job and had been a sign of hope to a troubled person, but I’ve been at this work long enough to know that there is almost always more to the story.  After some conversation with this woman I helped her find her way to North Raleigh Ministries (NRM).  NRM (www.northraleighministries.com) is a faith based mission of St. Mark’s and other area churches who recognized a few years back a need to care for folks just like this in our community in ways better than any one church could handle alone.  I called the Executive Director of NRM and briefed her on the woman’s situation.  The director lamented that the woman was right about how little help is available for women in Raleigh who are not on drugs or who don’t have children.  She agreed to meet with this woman and to see what she could do to help. 

A few hours later, the director called me back and confirmed my suspicisions.  There was more to the story.  There were some troubling details that had been left out of this woman’s story as she first told it to those of us gathered in the sanctuary.  And yet…NRM was still willing to offer some basic assistance and shelter for the night. 

So, what to make of all of this?  First, I’m really glad I didn’t take the banner down.  I had all but decided it was not an effective form of communication.  God however had other ideas.  Turns out 3 new folks were drawn in by the sign…all 3 looking for sanctuary and a word of hope during these troubling times.  Second, while the distressed woman’s story turned out to have a few holes in it…regardless she needed help.  She is troubled, maybe not just around issues of needing shelter, but about life in general and truth telling.  So while we maybe couldn’t help her in the ways she wanted us to, I am confident that we did offer assistance and sanctuary in a moment of great trouble.  Finally, I am awed by the generosity of the others that gathered there for worship.  Without missing a beat, they were ready, willing, and wanting to help.  Indeed, St. Mark’s is a refuge for troubled people during these troubled times, and I’m simply honored to serve among these great folk. 

Benediction: Going forward, may God draw others in trouble, regardless of the kind of trouble/need it is, to St. Mark’s and may we stand ready to offer grace, peace, and The Good News of Jesus Christ.  And rather than take down the banner may we do even more to get the word out that we are a place for troubled people during these difficult times.  Amen.

Stuart-ship

Upon hearing that it was stewardship month at the church, a daughter of one of our staff members asked her mother why Pastor Ben’s son, Stuart, got a whole month dedicated to him!  Get it?  S-t-e-w-a-r-d and S-t-u-a-r-t said aloud sound pretty much alike.  You can understand her confusion.

One thing is for certain: I am not a child psychologist.  I have never studied the developmental stages of children.  But, boy, am I ever learning through the every day, hands-on experience of being a dad.  All of that is to say, while I may not understand how it happens, I am simply fascinated to watch my children learn. 

Up to this point, neither my wife nor I have formally attempted to teach my son, Stuart (2 yrs old), about the Bible.  But on the day of his baptism, the church – St. Mark’s - gave him his first Bible.  My wife and I just put it in his room among his other books and trusted that when the time was right, when he was ready or showed some interest, that we would sit down and “talk” about the Bible.  Well, in the meantime, life happened.  We got busy, moved to a new house, had a baby, did a small renovation, etc.

Yet, to my great surprise, Stuart has taken a total fascination to his Bible.  With no prompting from his parents, he picks it up, carries it around, and shouts out, “Read my Bibbble, Daddy!”  More often than not, he insists that we read from it before he goes to bed.  Sometimes, “Where’s my Bibbble?” is the first expression out of his mouth in the morning.  Mostly I’m left scratching my head wondering where he learned about it and how he came to fall in love with it.

Pondering these questions this week, during our stewardship focus, it finally hit me.  Duh!  He learned about the Bible at St. Mark’s.  He learned about the Bible in the nursery and in his preschool class.  He came to love the Bible because folks at St. Mark’s, by their faithful stewardship and generosity, created opportunities for him to learn about the Bible.  They didn’t do it because Stuart is a PK (preacher’s kid).  They didn’t do it because it is Stuart-ship month.  They did it becuase they are faithful stewards of what God has entrusted to their care.  Thanks be to God! 

It is stewardship Month at St. Mark’s.  For four weeks we are intentionally talking about how God takes our gifts and through them grows God’s joy in our community.  As a father, I am simply grateful to be a part of a faith community that takes every child’s faith development seriously.  I am thankful to be a part of a church that believes in joyful generosity and in reaching out, transforming lives, and empowerfing servants so the Kingdom of God might come on earth as it is in heaven. 

It’s not Stuart-ship month, its stewardship month.  May we continue to grow in our generosity in order that God’s work might continue to  be done in such fine fashion all across our community. 

“What’s that Stuart?”

“Read my Bibbble daddy, read my Bibble!” 

“Okay…hold on I’m coming…”

The Afternoon The Lights Went Out

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it! (John 1:5)

So in case you’re wondering why the lights went out in part of Midtown Raleigh yesterday, let me shed some light on the subject.  About 3:30 pm yesterday (Thursday) a tractor trailer attempting to make a  delivery to the church turned in our main entrance off of Six Forks and snagged the power lines.  The driver realized what was happening but only after it was too late.  Power poles and telephone lines crashed to the ground and the lights went out…

But we who follow after Christ know that the light shines in the darkness and that the darkness cannot overcome the light.  Within minutes fire fighters, police, and utility workers were on the scene.  It did take some time to restore the power and the accident no doubt caused headaches for anyone trying to maneuver around the Six Forks/Midtown/North Hills area.  We do regret the inconvenience.

I personally had not finished writing my sermon.  So after checking on the driver and speaking to the authorities I made my way back to my office and attempted to finish writing my sermon.  All I can say is sermon crafting is hard enough without adding the challenges of writing in the dark with the computer battery backup beeping/squawking every 15 seconds.  So fair warning…if the sermon seems to wander a bit on Sunday it is because I wrote part of it in the dark! 

Oh…I almost forgot to tell you what the driver was attempting to deliver to the church.  What was it?  A changing table for the preschool.  That’s right – a changing table – is in part responsible for all of the chaos that ensued.  Even better…the changing table is for my son’s preschool classroom.  Go figure.  I don’t know what any of this says about me, my son, or the church, but I thought I should shed some light on why it suddenly and mysteriously got dark around Midtown on Thursday afternoon.  You should note that as of this posting the main entrance to the church off of Six Forks remains closed.  Telephone lines are still down across the driveway.  We hope this will be resolved tomorrow in advance of our Fall Festival. 

Benediction: You can tear down the power poles and thus turn out the lights, but you cannot stop the work of the church or of God’s people.  It was impressive to watch the ministries of the church carry on despite the darkness.  The light shines in the darkness and darkness did not overcome it!

Do You Love Me?

No, I’m not talking about me!  I’m not asking if you love me, Pastor Ben, though it wouldn’t hurt to hear it if you do.  All joking aside, this coming Sunday at St. Mark’s we will finish our sermon series based around Bishop Reuben Job’s Book Three Simple Rules with a look at rule #3 – Stay in love with God.  Again and again in Scripture we are told to love God with all our heart, mind, soul, and strength.  We are also told/shown just how much God loves us and desires to be in covenant relationship with us.  But it takes two.  God has never and will never quit on God’s end…but what about us.

Jesus, in a post-resurrection appearance, asks Peter 3 times, “Do you love me?”  It is a question that stops me cold in my tracks.  “I want to,” my heart screams back to God but I know I fall short.  I don’t always attend to the ordinances/practices of prayer, Bible study, Holy Communion, and fasting.  I too often rush into the day and speed right past Morning Prayer all the while promising to check in for Night Prayer.  But too often I get to the end of the day and fall absolutely exhausted into bed without even so much as a word of thanks to God for the day. 

Imagine standing in front of Jesus.  Imagine Jesus asking, “Insert your Name, do you love me?”  How would you answer?  Perhaps this week’s Word from God is a call to examine your life more closely.  How are you doing, really, at staying in love with God?  Do you make time daily/weekly to check in?  How often do you actually sit down and study your Bible?  When is the last time you took communion?   

So often I hear people say, “God just feels so distant.”  Or they ask, “Where is God?”  Listen, God never quits on us.  God never moves away rather we are the ones who quit, who walk away, and who fail to hold up our end of the bargain/covenant. 

The Good News is that even after Peter denies Christ three times, Jesus gives him another chance and he does the same for you and me.  So if your answer to Jesus’ question, “Do you love me?” is not a full-fledged, all out, “yes!” then maybe it is time to pick back up the practices of daily prayer, study, communion, and fasting.  Will you join me?

Expect Great Things

I spent last Thursday through Saturday on the campus of The Scarritt Bennett Center (www.scarrittbennett.org) in Nashville, TN.  I was there as part of a design team working on an event for next April entitled A River Deep and Wide.  The purpose of the event/conference is to offer a spiritual formation experience in the Christian Tradition as it enters the increasingly complex religious and spiritual environment of the 21st century and to offer a time of dialogue within the wider ecumenical Christian family as well as with neighbors and friends from other faith traditions.  But more about this will be forth coming in later posts.

For those unfamiliar with Scarritt Bennett it looks a lot like Duke’s campus (Gothic architectural style) except not nearly as big and the stone is the color of Tennessee sandstone rather than various shades of gray.  It is a beautiful campus.  As my team moved around the campus I couldn’t help but notice that over many of the archways there were powerful yet short inscriptions.  One was “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life”.  Another was “The World is my Parish”.  But the one that stopped me in my tracks and continues to flash through my mind is “Expect great things from God.” 

How simple and yet how profound, “Expect great things from God”.  I must confess that it is not in my general nature to walk around simply expecting, looking for, and or waiting for God to do great things.  I have just not been conditioned and or formed to think that way.  Why is that?  After all do we not have a record of God doing great things?  Just read through Scripture and you will find story after story of God doing…great things!  In deeper moments of reflection when I look back over my own life or that of the life of the church I serve I can see that yes indeed God is most certainly in the business of doing great things.  So then why do I not walk around and or live with a greater sense of expectancy and hope that at any moment God is about to do another great thing? 

The truth is God is doing great things all around us all day long if we will but pause to take notice.  God is doing great things at St. Mark’s UMC.  Sixteen plus folks are participating in our new members class entitled “Exploring the Way”.  Forty one folks are engaged in Disciple I Bible Study.  Generosity is breaking forth on multiple fronts.  On Sunday as we started to sing the Doxology I moved into place to receive the offering but alas no usher came forward.  Why?  They had not finished with the collection.  The offering was so large and so generous it took the ushers a few extra moments to gather it all in.  The generosity of God’s people in this place will allow this faith community to do even great things in the days ahead. 

In closing, do you live with the mindset of expectation that God will do great things?  If not, why not?  Let us never forget the nature of our God.  God has done great things, is doing great things, and will continue to do great things in order that the Kingdom might come on earth as it is in heaven.  May we go forth to look for and give voice to the great things God is doing in the world.

Simply Hard Rules

Whether I like it or not it is over.  What’s over?  Summer!  Yes, I know that technically summer lasts until September 21st or thereabouts but I can’t help but feel like summer ends with the arrival of Labor Day.  By now, for most of us, vacations have come and gone, a new academic year has commenced, and it is time to get back in to the swing of things.  So with one last trip to the ocean last week, I bid goodbye to summer.  A sunset on the last night of our vacation offered a beautiful benediction to a great but busy summer.  Thanks be to God.

But in saying goodbye to something we open ourselves and prepare ourselves to say hello to what comes next.  What comes next?  In this case a very exciting fall at St. Mark’s.  This coming Sunday, September 14th, we will celebrate the start of our new year with what we are calling an Old Fashioned Covered Dish Lunch.  Lunch will be followed by the unveiling and launch of our new website.  We will also be offering tours of our newly renovated Youth space as well as a fantastic Ministry Fair.  Make plans now to bring a friend, a covered dish to share, and some canned food for North Raleigh Ministries.  I promise you will not find a better meal in all of Raleigh this Sunday.

Our theme for the coming year is Bearing the Kingdom to World.  We will be preaching as well as teaching around how it is that we are called to bear the Good News in word and deed into the world.  We start this Sunday, September 14th, with a 3-week sermon series based upon Bishop Rueben Job’s book entitled Three Simple Rules: A Wesleyan Way of Living.  In his book, Job builds upon John Wesley’s General Rules: Do no harm, Do good, and Stay in love with God.  On one level these rules sound elementary, basic, and yes, rather simple.  But try living them out.  Try bearing them out in the world.  Suddenly you will find, at least I did, that they are simply hard to follow. 

This week we start with rule one: Do no harm.  I get it.  I understand it.  I can remember it.  It seems simple.  But over the course of the just the past three days as I studied, prepared, and worked on my sermon about doing no harm, I found that on multiple occasions I was doing harm!  I spoke too quickly and with a less than gracious tone to a fellow committee member, I failed to listen fully to a staff member, I rushed to judgement about a person, I participated in unprofitable conversation and I did things that did not promote unity and oneness within the body of Christ.  Like I said these rules while simple are simply hard to live out.  But I, we, must press on and with God’s help continue to seek to become all God dreamed us to be. 

So as we say goodbye to summer and hello to fall, I hope that you will join me in pursuit of a more faithful way of Christ-centered living – a way framed around these 3 simple rules.  With great anticipation I look forward to Sunday and our launch as well as our year together as we seek to bear God’s kingdom in the world.  Now for our benediction…

Go forth this day to do no harm; ”invested in the effort to bring healing instead of hurt; wholeness instead of division; and harmony with the ways of Jesus rather than with the ways of the world.”  (From Rueben Job’s book Three Simple Rules 31)

The First BEN-e-diction

On and off for centuries people of faith have concluded worship with a final benediction – a blessing and sending forth of God’s people into the world.  Because the benediction most often comes at the end of the service we tend to view it and perceive it as just that – an ending.  But in so many ways it is really just the beginning.  It is the beginning of the rest of our day, our week, our life.  It is the launching point for the living out of what we learned, experienced, and committed to in worship.  So rather than see the benediction as just an ending might we also come to see it as the start of what comes next – the attempt to faithfully live out our calling to follow after Christ? 

It is with this thought in mind that I launch BEN-e-diction.  It is my hope and intention that this blog will help to continue the conversation concerning what God is up to in the world long after the benediction has been pronounced, worship has concluded, and God’s people have dispersed.  Why the name BEN-e-diction for the blog?  Well my name is Ben Williams and I serve as the lead pastor of St. Mark’s United Methodist Church in Raleigh, North Carolina.  In my role I offer lots of benedictions in worship but realize that often just because the worship service is over doesn’t mean we are done experiencing or processing what God is up to in our lives or in the life of the community.  In fact often worship stirs up more than it settles.  Just because we exit the sanctuary doesn’t mean issues and concerns that we brought with us to worship or that arose during worship are reconclied and or settled.  Furthermore the benediction is not an invitation to just sit on our laurels until next Sunday.  No, the benediction is really just the beginning of our call to be faithful followers of Christ. 

So I hope this blog can be a place where we continue the conversation about God and what God is up to in the world.  I also hope it is a place where folks feel comfortable adding to the conversation.  Hopefully together we can reflect on questions such as, What did worship stir up for you?  What issues were raised in the sermon that you want to think more about or talk further about?  Where did you connect?  Where did you feel a disconnect?  What did God say to you or to us a community of faith that needs to be further discerned (fleshed out)?  What action is Christ calling us to take or not to take? 

To be sure other themes, topics, and questions will arise, sometimes not directly connected to a worship service per se, but worth further discussion as we seek to grow in faith.  Rest assured we will deal with those as well.  But no matter what direction this blog takes, my chief aim will be to keep us listening, praying, seeking, and discerning what God is up to and what role God has for us to play in the ushering in of God’s Kingdom on earth as it is in heaven. 

So let me close this first BEN-e-diction with of course what else but a benediction…May the words of the final verse of the Hymn of Promise bless you and guide you this day.

“In our end is our beginning; in our time, infinity; In our doubt there is believing; in our life, eternity, In our death, a resurrection; at the last, a victory, Unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see.” 

So with every ending…of worship, of the day, or even death…may we remember that in Christ it is just a new beginning.  And with that benediction, may this blog begin…